:) My life is always seem like lucky, at the same time I feel my undeserved-ness which I thought I am at the moment. Being in this cold windy and sailing country of New Zealand is one of my great experiences so far. On other things, I thought I could reduce my tensions but I am not. The only best way to reduce you tension is to walk back the path you know it work. :) That is As Solat and Al Quran. I come to learn between sleeping with Zikir and without it. I don't know why this things come to my mind at the moment. but I am sure it's useful all the time to me. might be to all of you who read this. As Muslimin.
:) I learnt Life more from this far end of the world. but I can say this right. My Home Place is always the best part of my life. My Country. Brunei. Even if I have seen few places. there is never such place I experienced peacefulness of all my time. I am proud to be Bruneian. I hope this modernness doesn't change a bit of what we locally invested and I am sure Our Beloved Sultan is working hard to maintain peacefulness of the country. "Negara Zikir" this term aren't just term we use to hear now to me. It meant it. I seen and experience it.
Here in NZ, I know to adopt my self that much. even I am alone or shall I say I have to stay alone from them. but it's good enough to stay and talk to your own mind. talk nicely and talk about positive thinking and being in control of yourself. Today, I managed to take action to myself to ask something if I am unsure. I wish it stays as my nature habit. like what the Law of Regulations safety of collision at sea that I am memorizing them verbatim right now. "Assumption shall not be made on the basis of scanty information...." that's just a few part of the rule, which I believe is applicable anywhere in life. I started to follow my routine and how If feel doing this things right for me. I started having faith to put something into working. I guessed OBSESSION of LOVE that I had before wasn't the one that match me. but the one that had made a big CHANGED impact on my life. Come to think of it. I appreciate loneliness at the moment.
Like most of Islamic leader went to a place where less distraction to find way to centered for IMAN.
I have been keeping notes so far. Maybe if I am retired from my services I could be a writer. since I found that I could be more sharing nowadays. being a navigator is one hell of a job. here I learn to keep notes and write things here and there. funny me.
:/ sometime I couldn't let go to such stupid things. the past that hunted me down. the love affection. I always believe that time, if I work hard on her, I could do no wrong but to let her know How much I do something which I have not told her meaningful. or maybe not.. forget it..
I am trying my best to study one book of life right now. I am trying my best to find time for it. even if it's just few words. or sentences. but I must learn it hard. I need to learn it because this will be my core of substantialness. - The Quran
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